Since
I recently signed
with my awesome agent Kira Watson, I wanted to take a step back and break
down my process on the manuscript and talk about the amount of time and effort it
took to ultimately sign with my agent. Some of this is to reflect back, but
also to allow others to see how perseverance and hard work (a lot of it) can
pay off. Before I landed an agent, I really had no idea the amount of work that
went into a manuscript to get it to the point where someone would ultimately say
yes!
In
order to walk you through the process, we have to go all the way back to 2012.
Yes I said 2012. I had just started querying my first completed manuscript
(second manuscript I’d written) and a shiny new idea grabbed hold of me. I was
driving in my car and a weird thought popped into my head. What if you never
got lost, ever? (Ironically I was not lost at the time) What if you could have
a map with you 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days and year? And that idea
would become a story I dubbed TRACKER220. Of course from there the idea
exploded. If you could carry a tracking device with you at all time, what other
good and bad things would come from it?
With
that sense of wonder and question I started writing. And for some reason I
couldn’t stop. The idea kept going and going and going until before I knew it I
had a finished draft. Then I was shuttling it off to critique partners. Everyone
that read it enjoyed the concept and had valuable input. I spent even more time
editing and incorporating their amazing feedback. This story felt special.
And
yet when I set my first manuscript aside and put it in the metaphorical drawer
because I wasn’t gaining much traction with it, I had this nagging feeling that
TRACKER maybe wasn’t quite ready for the query trenches.
I
posted my query and pages on Write On Con and got additional feedback from
writers and Ninja agents. I continued to edit, but still felt like something
wasn’t 100% there.
At
this point it was the summer of 2014. I set my sites on Pitch Wars, a contest
that allowed you to be selected by a mentor to work with you to improve your
manuscript before an agent round and querying. It sounded like exactly what I
needed to get over the hump and get my polished manuscript not just query ready
but request ready.
I
put in my submission for the four mentors I thought would be best for my manuscript
and then I waited. And eventually I got a full request from a mentor, then a
second full request from another mentor. Surely this was a good sign. But when
the mentor/mentee match list went up I wasn’t on it.
I
WAS DEVASTATED.
I
cried… a lot.
I
didn’t feel ready to query, but also didn’t know how to make my manuscript
better than it currently was. I felt stuck despite really believing in my
mansucript. But one of the mentors sent me an extremely encouraging feedback
email. I really enjoyed your manuscript. I think you are query ready, and I
wish I had some time to help you hone it even further.
Did
she say query ready?
After
that I put on my big girl pants and sent out a few queries. I quickly got a
full request and was shocked at how fast it came. Maybe this mentor was right.
With
some new found encouragement I also entered Baker’s Dozen. I wasn’t expecting
to get in. After all Pitch Wars hadn’t turned out how I had hoped. And as I
suspected, when the email notification went out, my inbox was empty. But then a
moment later it dinged. One of my CPs who has also entered was reaching out. Isn’t
TRACKER220 your manuscript? I scrolled the list and sure enough it was on there
but with a different author’s name by it. Had it been a mistake? I emailed
Authoress and sure enough it had been. I was in! So on that fateful day in
December when the manuscripts went up for auction, I landed two additional full
requests.
Now I
really felt like I was getting somewhere. I continued forward getting involved
in twitter pitch events and getting a lot of positive remarks from writers
saying they loved the concept and couldn’t wait to read a story like mine. And
even got a lot of requests from agents and small pubs during the events. I also
entered Sun vs Snow and got in to that as well!
But as
the year moved into 2015, I got no requests during Sun vs Snow and the full
rejections from Baker’s Dozen rolled in too. I felt lost again, but that my
story really was something special and that I couldn’t give up on it.
By
the middle of 2015 I was sitting on some agent feedback from the full
rejections. The agents didn’t connect enough (whatever that meant) and a couple
sited that they had hoped for more world building.
WORLD
BUILDING?
What
did that even mean? That could be any number of things. I didn’t know where to
start. I struggled to wrap my brain around how to fix world building in the
manuscript, but knew that it was probably a real issue because more than one
agent had pointed it out.
And
still I stewed and spun my wheels. (oh and I got married in October 2015 which
slowed me down a bit)
Until
I decided maybe it was time to pull back. I spent months revising the
manuscript and getting more feedback with respect to the world and character
development in the story. I completed a major edit that included adding scenes
to help further define the technology and world. I got one more round of
feedback to make sure I was on the right track before I dove back into the
query trenches again in summer/fall of 2016.
I
felt so much better about the manuscript this time. I continued to pitch during
twitter contests and got more requests as well as full requests from my queries.
I found new agents to query and kept pushing forward.
Until
I nudged an agent who had had my manuscript for over 3 months (for those
keeping track we are now in March of 2017). Finally she responded. She loved
the concept and many aspects of the story, but ultimately something had made
her pause. The world. The reader was told a lot about how the world worked
through the main characters eyes, but the reader wasn’t really shown. And
because of that, the agent decided to pass.
BUT
she said if I would like to revise, she’d be happy to take another look.
When
I first read the email I was furious. All I saw was world building as a problem
yet again. Hadn’t I already fixed that? How could it still be broken? And
because of that anger, I’d completely missed how much the agent actually
enjoyed my manuscript, and the fact that she believed in it enough to give me
another shot.
After
I took some time to cool down and really consider what she had to say, I 100%
agreed with every piece of feedback she had given me. And even better the ideas
on how to fix it were already flowing. I sat on it for a day and talked it over
with some of my critique partners. I was pretty sure I was going to do the
revision.
And when
I woke up the next morning EUREKA! Something I had always known about my main
character but had never been able to make matter to the story finally had its
place. I had always known my main character was Jewish, but I never mentioned
it before because it didn’t seem important to the story…until this agent’s
feedback. With the way she had explained the world building, if I incorporated
how the main character was Jewish, I could show her struggles with the
technology and her religion simultaneously. With the technology built into my
story it was in direct conflict with Jewish beliefs and observances of the
Sabbath. Now I had something.
I
emailed the agent and let her know I’d like to work a revision and would get
back to her when I finished. Then I went to work. I red lined the whole
manuscript. Looked for places to really show how the technology worked, pulled
in Jewish traditions, beliefs, and identity struggles and even rearranged a
series of chapters to fix the flow of the story and increase the pace in the
middle.
All
in all, it took me a solid SIX MONTHS to complete the edits. And when I did, I
knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I had a much stronger manuscript. But I
still wasn’t sure if the agent would like the direction I took the story. She’d
mentioned world building, not incorporating religion into the story. What if
she hated the story now?
I
swallowed down the feelings of doubt and sent it off in October of 2017. Then I
queried some additional agents and waited, and waited…
AND
WAITED.
Until
that fateful day when I finally had an offer in hand (January 2018 for those
still keeping track). It wasn’t the agent who requested the R&R but another
agent who offered. So I notified the agent who requested the R&R and she
was in the middle of reading and had really positive things to say as well. And
a few days later she too offered. And I signed with the second agent!
But
none of this wouldn’t have been possible without the time I took to edit and
polish. The leaps of faith I took and the pauses. Taking the time to step back
re-evaluate and rework was invaluable. The continued effort to improve the
manuscript and my craft was exactly what I needed. Not taking no for an answer
and using it as fuel to light the fire that led to achieving my goal was the icing
on the cake.
When
it was all said and done, from initial thought to offer, it was just shy of 5
years or writing, editing and querying off and on. And five years and one day
after I sent my first query for my other manuscript. All because I refused to
give up. Because I listened to that nagging voice in my head that this story
had to be told and it was good enough to get noticed.
I
still have work ahead of me on this manuscript, but all the hard work has
definitely paid off. And I now know what it takes to take something from idea
to magic.
